“Hard is trying to rebuild yourself, piece by piece, with no instruction book, and no clue as to where all the important bits are supposed to go.”
― Nick Hornby,
Well, here we are again #ZionFans. January 2018 and I find myself, yet again, trying to lose weight. This time I am heavier than I was before. But, the difference is, I am so much more motivated. I have come to the point in my life where I refuse to look at myself naked in the mirror. I had gotten to 310 pounds at one point and that was just way too much to accept. Three hundred POUNDS?! Oh no!
So, one day I was on Facebook and I had seen that my Facebook friend, Candice, had moved to Georgia and she was training down here. So, I hit her up. I had seen the change she had implemented in herself and her clients and I said, ” I need that!” I mean, I live by the rule, if you can’t love yourself, how do you expect anybody else to? And I haven’t been loving myself for a very long time.
Candice and I had our initial consultation over the phone where I expressed to her, I NEED to lose weight but I have no cartilage in my knees. So working out is just way too hard. Well, she told me she knows exactly what to do to help with that. So, on January 2nd, 2018, we met up for the first time and she put me through several different exercises to see what I can and cannot do. And even though it was 30 minutes, it was enough to get me to see that I needed her in my life.
See, I’ve had several different trainers. GREAT TRAINERS! And there was always a reason why I had to stop going to them. I trained with Oshea The Model for one day. Then, I had to get another job unexpectedly so I had to quit him. And I trained with Rocko the boxer for a couple of weeks. I actually paid him for two months up front! But, I had lost my job and didn’t have the gas to keep meeting up with him. So, the day I was actually supposed to meet with Candice I said, “you know what? That’s too much gas for me to drive to training, back home to shower, then drive to work.” So, I was going to call her and cancel. But, I put her address in my GPS and she lives 4 minutes away from me! So, if for any reason, I was low on gas or my boyfriend needed the car, I could literally WALK to her house. In other words, no excuses.
In that first session, I told Candice that my boyfriend and I plan to move to another state at the end of May. Which means, I only had her for 5 months. So, I need to be at my target weight of 200lbs by then. And do you know what she said?
“Ok! We can do that!” I would need to lose 18lbs a month until I leave.
The next day, today, she sent me a grocery shopping list and told me to drink a gallon of water a day. Now, I don’t know if you guys remember my vegetarian brother but, he’s a vegan now. And he persuaded me to do a 40 day fast with him. So, now I am doing no meat, only seafood (pescatarian),no fried foods, no sugar, no starch. So, now my grocery list is even shorter!
But, I’m going to keep going no matter what. Because, I am now 27 years old. And after five years of only dating myself, I have found a man that I think might actually want to have something more with me so, I am going to fall in love with my body again. Here’s to the next 139 days! (moving May 20th)